Its been a week since i had broke the news that i would be going to year 1 in NTU biological sciences to my friends.
Of course, the person who is most shock is lt. I can't help it too. They didnt give me direct entry to second year. :( They didnt think im good enough so, what can i do? lol
Appeal to second year?
Why i didnt:
1) do i have the confidence to survive better in second year?
2) Do i really wanna go second year? Is it becos my friends are going?
3) Do i really feel that i have the quality to go second year or is it just that i want to take shortcuts in my life?
4) Even if i really go into second year, i would keep on thinking that i should have stayed in first year that time, whenever im stress.
I just told some of my secondary school friends today. They were shock and they feel pity for me.
' Yea, 'sway' right?' was my response every time. But deep down i know, perhaps i really dont have the quality to go direct second year.
Mei xing and Poon Khai further confirmed the point on being alone. And its scary.
I know, I know i would cry and say why didnt i appeal so that i could be with my friens. But, i have to grow up. One day, i might look back and say, 'hey, i was so reliant on ppl that time. Luckily i grew up'. And, i hope i can say that one day.
Its harder for me to tell everyone that: I would go alone :) I like to go alone :)
Cos i dont like to go alone but sooner or later i would need to be independant. Yea, and im learning that now. :) I know this came earlier for me than my other friends. bad luck or good luck, i dont know, i shall face it on my own cos thats the only thing i can do now...
