Friday, October 31, 2008 Friday, October 31, 2008
Once upon a time
There was a girl who was standing by the river, watching the water flow smoothly downstream. It was a bright and sunny day but her mood is not compaitable with the weather. She wished it was.
Nevertheless, she still decide to take a stroll along the river bank. Picking up stones and throwing them into the river, she hope she could throw all her troubles away by doing so.
The effort is futile. All her troubles are stil there, bugging her.
She mumbled to herself : I should find someone to talk to ...
Walking on the bridge, she cross the river to the other side, where she could see her family and friends there.
She skipped home... wanting to find her father to talk to.
She couldn't find him.
She asked: Mummy, where is papa?
Mummy: He had gone over to the other town. Dont u remember?
The girl look down: I remember it now.
She wanted to talk to her mum instead, but her mum said : Come, help me to........
Before her mum realise, the girl had ran out of the house.
The girl thought: I'm too troubled to think about this! Im too busy to help. im sorry!
She walked on.....
There, in front of the yard, she saw her friends.
They were brooding while some were busy building castles with plastercine. Thats for their homework from school.
They looked up at her and some asked : What's wrong?
The girl smiled and said: Get busy with ur work, Im fine
They smiled at her and continued to be busy.
The little girl turned and walked away.
She walked into the forest and soon came to a clearing.
There lie a log. It was tempting for her to sit.
Yes, she shall sit there.
On the log, she folded her knees and slouched.
She like to slouch. Its unhealthy and ugly, but she like to do it when she is alone.
She would seem to be small and wouldnt be noticed by others.
She like that feeling.
She dont like to be the attention of the forest creatures.
Th girl mumbled to herself : WHy isnt there anyone to talk to?
The girl shouted in frustration, with tears welling up in her eyes : Isnt there anyone i can talk to?! My name is Hong Hwee!!!!
Sunday, October 26, 2008 Sunday, October 26, 2008
Oxygen = life
Oxygen = energy
Oxygen = Movement
Oxygen = Ageing
Oxygen = Death
Oxygen = Explosions
Everything thing has two sides to it. Face it.
I hate to say so.... but Ben Yang's lecture had again inspired me.
The videos that he played in class were so captivating, though its not about any hot or handsome artistes. Its about the miracle of life and what has science got to do with life.
Ppl had been trying so hard to keep themselves young. They tr many means and ways and some suceeded.
But whats the price?
The documentary shows a woman who had injected growth hormones into her since dont know when. Maybe since she starts to feel herself ageing. (Come on - we are ageing every min)
She looked like she is in her thirties but in real fact, she is already 56 yrs old.
'Freaking hell!' That must be some woman's reaction when they were striked with this news. Some might be eager to find out how this particular women did this while others might probably think the same way as me - 'What exactly had she sacrificed?'
Injected growth hormone into her veins everyday would be painful but she endured it. She had a youthful look in return. But the price is - the increase risk of cancer.
And yet she had said : I have got nothing to lose. So there is nothing to fear.
There would be nothing wrong with her thinking that.
But what if, what if, if cancer were to strike her at her age, she would have a 'long' way to go, long way to fight it, since she had injected the growth hormone that made her body 'younger'. By then, would she have had the same thought as well? Would she be smiling and saying : Its all worth it. No wrinkles, no fats, no ageing signs for so long and in return, im striken with illnesses that i would anyway get in anytime of my lifetime. What regrets would i have?
There are no right and wrong views about this. Its all a matter of do you think ots worth it or not.
The wrinkles on our mum's faces, the tummy that they have, the weak bones that needed our support.
The wrinkles- Are the evidence of the years she had taken care of us, the troubles that she had gone through in order to make us grow healthly and happily, study well and be well fed.
The tummy - reminds me of the time she had to squeeze me into this world, to welcome me with her smile and in the end, she can this stretch marks cellulite and tummy. She hates it, but i adore it, with reminder of how i came to this world.
The weak bones - remember we were still fetus? We had drained the calcium in her when she was carrying us. When we were born, she had to carry us all the way. whenever we were kids and wanted to be carried by her instead of walking on our own, she will always nod her head with a smlie.
Thats what i felt about woman ageing..... its different from what she thought. Not as ugly as what she had potrayed herself as.
Ageing..... we are in this every minute, with every breath of oxygen that we take in.
Who dont age?
Thursday, October 16, 2008 Thursday, October 16, 2008
I knew it... Ben Yang's lessons are gonna be a challenge in future. He had just briefed us about his lecture etc and we are so so so stressed and worried. I dont know about the others, at least i know i'm panicking cos i know it would be so much more difficult than i had thought/ experienced.
Thursdays and fridays are gonna be very tedious and sufficient sleep the night before is a must, though i can't promise if i have got the luxury of doing so. Certainly hope so.
He showed us an educational video today. And its about the ageing population in a certain country.
The documentary includes interviews with the elderly and how they had lived till this old age and how had they coped with their lives despite the illnesses that they are suffering from.
They were so brave when facing these terrible illnesses- some parkinsons, others were diabetes mellitus or respiratory tract illnesses.
There was an interview with an elderly.
Reporter: How old are u now?
Old lady: 99
Reporter: What's the feeling of turning 100 soon?
Old Lady: Well, it still feels like 99!
I wonder if i feel the same too. I wonder if i were to be so oblivious to my age, would my body function feel the same too? No. Ben Yang emphasized to us today- we will all die. And thats cruelly true. I was striken by this thought - how would i live this world?
He said : Either by heart problems (most) , other diseases, or accidents. Even if u had luckily missed these.... u will still die of deteriotion of the body organs and the function of these deterioted organs would not be sufficient to allow u to carry on live forever.
So what exactly do u mean when ppl say forever? Like friends forever, love forever, hate forever. Should they be changed to 'till death' instead?
The narrator of the documentary said: Everyone wanted to live young forever, but when they turn old, they would never wanna live old forever.
Thats true. Nobody in this world would like to suffer forever. But the elderly that i had seen from the documentary were so brave and not hesistant to face their age.
There was a couple who both lived together till 90 plus. His wife had alzhemier's and the hushband had parkinson. They were still living together. Initially, they were moved to the room with 2 separated beds. They later pushed the bed together and slept next to one another.
This left me thinking - The vows that were said at the point of the marriage ceremony are so true. They had executed this and how many couples would have done so?
How many couples would have separated even before this last final stage of test of their love?
They would have thought that the real test of love were at their initial stage of relationship but the real test would only start when they are married. Would they have thought of this at the point of marrying each other? The emotional support of each other would be important esp at the point when they age and unfortunately, with diseases. They would be emotionally and of course physically weak.
If both were to be able to foresee the future together, would they be able to endure the last test?
There was another case about a daughter taking care of his father who has respirator tract diseases. They were mexicans if im not wrong cos she had address his dad as 'papi'.
She had mastered everything that was needed to take care of his bed-ridden father. She had learnt those difficult medical procedures that without learning it at school, it would be ten times harder for her. How would she be able to cope? Thats because of her love for her dad i guess. Would every child in the world be able to do this as she had done?
The commitment is long and hard to maintain. She has the will that is worth respecting.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 Wednesday, October 15, 2008
I had been telling myself - pls eat heathly. dont eat fried food. Must drink more fruit juices and water, eat more fruits and vegetables, and eat plain food.
This is to make myself not so 'heaty' and make sure my 肝火 not too much. Must!
Whoever who ask me to eat fried food is trying to tempt me. Pls dont. Thank you.
I wish to continue this for 2 weeks first.
At least i have suceeded for 3 days. LOL
Thursday, October 9, 2008 Thursday, October 09, 2008
I think i'm having some problems with my eyes.
I met my primary school friend today. Another.
I didnt even see him. LOL
I guess its my eyes being small or i wasnt really looking.
Why does it occurs like that everytime lol
I need to brighten my eyes
open wider (guess its bit hard for me )
Anyway, still the same thing. I feel glad to meet my primary school mates :)
Sorry i was in a hurry so i didnt really chat. lol
Anyway ,me and li ting went Lot 1 today.
NTUC.
Being there is to buy some snacks to treat our fellow collegues in Acer
They were so sweet to us. thank you!
Then our dear li ting starts to being her 5 stages of shopping trend.
Stage 1
Li Ting : Hey i wanna buy this!
Me: Buy lor
Stage 2
Li Ting will check the price. If its far too x .... she will not buy
Which i think is a good point :)
If the pricei s reasonable, she will say : ok i will buy
Stage 3
If got other types
Li Ting: Hey got other flavours/ size/designs
depending on what she is buying
Li Ting: Which one should i buy?
Me: Maybe that one?
Li Ting: ok ...
Stage 4
Li Ting: Hey..... should i buy? or should i buy next time, elsewhere
Me (GRRRRR) : You should
Stage 5
Depending on herself, she might say
Li Ting: Yea, i think i buy
OR
Li Ting : I think next time then buy
Me: GRRRR
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Therefore, today when we went shopping in NTUC
We stood there 15mins deciding on which tidbit to buy.
After we got our purchase after 20 mins , she suddenly say something that i wanna laugh.
Li Ting sigh: 哈，选一个tidbits也要拿么久。。。
Me：这句话应该我讲吧。 。 。
PS：li Ting dont beat me 。。。 lol
Wednesday, October 8, 2008 Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I'm feeling much better as compared to yesterday. Probably because of the panadol that i had this afternoon... or that i didn't keep my mind thinking about me being sick. Its all in the mine.
But one thing that i cant help feeling is the ache that is running all over my body. My back aches thigh aches hips aches. Its due to the flu. they say
I shall try to tahan but its easier said than done. LOL
Its gonna be boring tmr.... too
PS: I forgot to buy tuna spread.... there goes my breakfast (with white bread) lol
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 Tuesday, October 07, 2008
I feel horrible..... both for being not able to go volunteery work and for being sick.
I can't seem to get well.
It gets to the phaynx and its irritating
My throat itchs and nose disturbed by irritation
The dust and smoke are the culprits
My lungs seems to be more polluted then ever cos there would always be ppl smoking
every min
Yea and thanks for sharing ur smoke but i didnt ask for it
I dont want it
The dust seems to be in every molecule of air that i breathed in
and Grandpa John just luv sweeping the floor
which makes more dust flying in the air
and which flew into my respiratory system
I just hope it dosent feel so dusty tmr and hope that the smoke would be lesser too
I heard from the FM that there is a kind a sweet that contains no sugar content.
But it tastes sweet!
How wonderful...... i wish i can taste it too
BUT ITS ONLY IN NEW YORK
Yea .... right
Thursday, October 2, 2008 Thursday, October 02, 2008
I'm not feeling well today.... ULCER + SORE THROAT + slight headache
Yea.... and felt so sleepy even after hours hours of sleep. Whats wrong with me.
Li Ting will say : Where to begin.....
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I decided to not feel sick so i decided to be more energetic today... and i found out that its all in the mind. So long that you dont think that u are sick... you wont feel sick.
But this hypnosis doesnt seems to work for my ulcer... still hurts like hell.
I shouldnt have slept late. My sore throat is getting better. Perhaps its just dry throat...
My ankle hurts.... sprain it? I dont know lol.
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Tmr's another day... hopefully the crowd will not be there tmr. Cos im so lazy recently... lol
