Sunday, June 22, 2008 Sunday, June 22, 2008
didnt sleep the whole night yesterday.
Was awake til 3 and then went Senoko fish market with mum and dad to take a good look at the fresh fish, prawns, carbs, stingrays that were sold there from as early as
3 am.
It was really a noisy market. You can see the fisherman all displaying their 'goods' on the floor and selling to those stallholders that are picking up 'goods' for their market stores.
Its really an eye-opener, even for me, who has fear for the fishy smell. lol
Didnt take pictures in the market cos its too busy everwhere and i have to shun the every fish basket that was towed from one side to another.
Quite crowded but still got space to move and time to be in awe.
There are families who go there to buy fresh seafood too.... not only us. For it is cheaper! lol
WOW, we ended up with fish, prawns and crabs. NIce. NOt a seafood lover but to buy it is found. Especially when the person weigh it on the super big weighing machine or hook the plastic bag on the hanging weighing machine. It always amuse me. lol
Then we went for breakfast at 5 and reached home at 6 plus. Took a nap at 7 till 12 and woke up, helping with the dishes.
Fried prawns! nice!
now pictures!
At J.CO having donuts.
WHat kind of expression is that ?! lol
At Senoko. Very dark!
It was raining at 4am. But only for 5 min
Saturday, June 21, 2008 Saturday, June 21, 2008
You said you didnt wanna see me, or hear anything regarding me. Im fine with it.
You dont want me to touch him. Im not fine with it.
He is not entirely yours. Fine
You dont want me to talk to him, to touch him, to play with him?
I wont, not in front of you.
Perhaps, I wont even have to see you.
Its my house, i have the freedom to walk around.
You wanna stare at me, scold me, say anything.
Be my guest.
I wont care, respond, or get angry.
As you said, im cold-blooded, heck care attitude, loner.
You say i hide myself withing myself.
You say, no one undderstands me.
Im a loner.
The problem is, you had any effort to understand me?
IN your eyes, im just some small kid
who is so inmature and selfish, and wilful.
I dnt care want others think of me.
So long you still know yourself and you know what surrounds you
You know what u are doing, what u like.
You know your purpos
Thats enough for me.
You can say im so small
My mindset is small
My ambition is small
But isnt that the factor that makes everyone different?
Everyone think differently, and even though we are made up of the same molecules, we are miraculously different
We act differently and have a world to ourselves.
We live for our own but we have the part in us that wants company and family
We are a family and you have to make it so difficult for all of us.
You say im a loner.
How about u?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 Wednesday, June 18, 2008
He is back home, finally, safe and sound, back from the hospital. The news of Him being admitted to the hospital was like lightning to me. You could have not imagine how much pain i was in, how much worry i was feeling. You might still think that im cold-blooded and selfish but i, too have feelings. Feelings that i might not express in my daily lives. Feelings that u might have never touched.
Tears that flow down are just a form. Mine not down my cheek, but inside my heart. Its infuriating to feel in this way. To have guilt that i cant fling away, though i know i might not be the main cause of all these. To have blame that wrap around me, even the air that surround cant seem to supply my lungs. To have the scoldings and cold eyes looking at me, yet cant tear them away.
You may not think i could even feel these, but i am still made of flesh and blood, and i have feelings. He is my dearest nephew and im worried for him more than you could imagine. I no longer care how you look at me, for i only care for his safety. I no longer care for your forgiveness, as i gain support on the fact that it may not be totally my fault, or the virus might not be totally from me.
No matter what, i dont know how to face you....
No matter you believe or not, I love him.......
Labels: Wrap Around
Sunday, June 15, 2008 Sunday, June 15, 2008
YOu think this is a drama show? Very funny, the world only revolve around you and everything that you say are so entirely correct. Every other human present are wrong and you are the cleverest.
I admit that im stupid, thats why i have to study and you say : If really clever then no need to everyday study.
Told you that alr admitted that me is stupid!
WHat u say are contradicting. You say : No one every helps me when im in trouble whereas i help you guys whenever you need .
oh so that means the money i lent you are monopoly notes?
You say that i should not touch daw when i have that virus. I told you that i did touch him a week ago, thats when im still feeling well. And you say that the virus could be harbouring inside me alr and the symptoms had not appeared yet.
Thats exactly my point! The symptoms haven appear yet so im not a gypsy so i wont know thta i will be sick like 2 months from now, will win toto tmr,and so on. So how would i know if i have the virus in me?
So i dont know i have the virus in me because the symptoms haven appear so of course i will help you take care of daw. If i dont, you will say im selfish again!
Its ok if you scold me and scolded me to tears, i dont care. BUT YOU CANT SCOLD MUM. he also cannot scold mum. Know that u dote on daw, who dont? Must u really scold mum just because we never inform you i was sick? Its my fault, my fault to be sick.
My fault to have ulcers on my tongue and feel headache and high fever. Its all my fault. DOnt pick on mum just because you had been doing it out of habit for the past one year.
We are your family, but u shoo us away cos you think we meant u bad. You say the whole world did something wrong to you. You say you are an angel. Im devastated. YOu have to be so negative and hostile to us. I have nothing to say.
I dont knwo when you are happy and willing to help, and when you are not. Disown us? you think you are in a drama?
Friday, June 13, 2008 Friday, June 13, 2008
Wasnt feeling so well today. had fever since yesterdayand ulcer plus red spots on my tongue. Felt so uncomfortable and draggy today. Blisters start to grow on my hand and sole of my feet and it was so painful especially on my right foot that i could barely walk. Was limping and some even ask if i was wearing a new shoe. lol. :)
Had a lecture this morning and i was already half unconcious. Was barely able to open my eyes because of the headache that always accompanies my fever. On top of that, i couldnt even speak. It even hurts when i swallow, not because im having sore throat but because my tongue is 'injured' lol
THere was an extra lecture at 11 and it was even more brain draining. DR HO is trying very hard to keep the lecture going but, i really am feeling the symptoms get stronger and stronger. Been like a mute for the whole day....
Meet my sis at admiralty to consult the doctor about my condition. Could be hand foot mouth disease, which is going to be really scary. The doc say nope, its not. My temperature is not really very high, and my hands and foot have minor blister, could be virus, but not the one that causes HFM. Still, my condition had to be monitored. I asked about my mouth cavity blisters and he said they were also minor ones and it would be more serious if it were to be HFM. For adults, the condition subsides very easily.
I was given medication to apply on my tongue and it hurts like hell when i apply on my tongue. So painful that my soul came out. lol. But it got back to my body when my sis kicked it in. LOL.
I was afraid to come into contact with Dawson. I dont even dare to look at him. The last person whom i want to infect is him. The last person who wants him to get infected is also me. Im notas selfish as you think i might be. Im not trying to hide my condition and delibrately avoid it.
Im in pain enough i couldnt even talk and couldnt even swallow. My head is bulging out and i cannot even think. You called me just to scold me and you tell me you arent blaming me. I care thats why im hurt by what u say. YOu want to know more about my condition so that u are sure that im not having HFM.
Trust me, im more worried than you are, and you are implying that im selfish?!
I can only say: Im sorry daw I cant imagine if i were to meet any mishaps in future, would i be a burden?!
Monday, June 9, 2008 Monday, June 09, 2008
回去的感觉，果然有如当初的感觉。有点又回去当被人使唤的丫头，实在无奈。今天，终于确实水是那个是非精了。哈哈。对不起晓辉，让你误会了。因为我太无聊，而且太想确实一下，是不是拿只龙虾搞的鬼。我太调皮了。 哈哈今天开工，却还有着度假的心情，实在令人噢脑。希望在接下拉的日子里，不要处于白日梦状态就好了。今天拿了成绩，只见的忧郁心情，有些舒缓， 但我还是会不由自主地为下一次的考试担心。
Sunday, June 8, 2008 Sunday, June 08, 2008
倒数3hrs了，要开学咯，实在令人失望。我不由自主地唉声叹气起来了。
我突然想了起来， 明天好像有可能要拿成绩了！太糊涂了，怎么这个也可以忘记？
实在是得打醒自己。
没关系，反正都已经尘埃落定了，不要在胡思乱想吧！
Saturday, June 7, 2008 Saturday, June 07, 2008
休息是为了要走更长远的路， 我觉得，这一点都没有错。哈哈，因为，我这几天都在看电视，是闲人哦。
要开学了，好伤心哦。到了医院，不管在什么时候，我们都得表现出一副很厉害 很enjoy的样子，否则，你不知道你的印象分会被抛到哪里去。
好假啊，但我相信，没有一个人是想那么的虚伪，那么的勉强。
这次会去医院，有一堆山的任务，需要我们依依去完成。要怎么去面对那些叮咛的眼神，看着你怎么去完成他们给的任务，我有感不舒服。
但是，我们每一个人，都背负着大人们的希望，要出人头地，要努力上进，我们明白，我们懂。
一直期待的假期已经过到最后的一天了。要好好地去珍惜，那剩下的9个小时。
休息了，就到了启程的时候了。休息是真的为了要走更长远的路
Thursday, June 5, 2008 Thursday, June 05, 2008
I watched Narnia and the prince caspian. Last week.
I had read reviews about this movie.
The comments arent superb
But i beg to differ
They said : The movie lacks the magical touch that they had in part I
I says : I agree to a certain extent. However, the second part of the movie exploits the main characters' characteristics.
They said: The book is much much better
I says : Of course it is. The book is thick. And they have much more time to descibe each and every scene and bring us deep into the story. The movie lacks the time. Just like Harry Potter. I personally feel that the book had so much contents that the movie is unable to cope. But the movie is doing well though, isn't it?
They said: The fighting scenes are too draggy and long.
I says : 2 fighting scenes. There are. One at night, when they sliently attack the Tamarians, and one i the day, when they fight head on with their opponents. None of the scene were those eye straining hard to see scene that you might observe in other movies. There is no raining that obsures the view and even the night scenes were clear yet still holds the air of slient attacks.
SO, i personally feel that its nice :)
and tabby! I also like that song! Its really nice
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Im making dumplings later, with my family. I have thought it through.
People tend to always brood over what they don't have rather than to think what they have.
Its inevitable, but if we were to think logically and just use our heart to think, we know that what we had been complaining are rubbish. Its not up to us to decide who our family members are, but its up to us to decide and do something to make our family come together.
Its within everyone's limits. Its what we should and can do. We should never ever give up on our family members, none of them. We might can frustrated with each other from time to time and we might even quarrel at times. Which pair of sisters dont quarrel? Which mother don't nag? Which dad don't pester? Come to the most basic and cliche type of sentence : its all for you.
I was being too wilful. I wanted to be alone and left alone without anyone pestering me. But wouldn't that be too lonely and sad? Its infuriating to be now that i once had that thought. That very selfish and naive thought.
Im sorry, to my family members. I had been wilful, had been weird, had been short-tempered. However, i treasure you guys. Thank you so much for still being with me :)
Labels: Thought it through
Wednesday, June 4, 2008 Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Im still awake now. Not because im suffering from insomia. im trying to get full use of my surfing of the net. as i had mentioned in the previous post, im so missing my internet!
EVen now, at 2 am in the morning, my dad is stil pestering me about his phone issues. IM FILLED UP TO THE BRIM. haven i really gave in to everyone?! Im staying at home and helping out as much as i can.... babysitting, dumplings making and answering every single question he asks. What else do you guys want me to do?! I dont even get to clock out! Im like 24 hours!
The most unable-to-tolerate would be to try to find peace in the middle of the night and still can be interuppted. Treat it like im selfish! But hey, i deserve the little time that i had left for myself to use the net! And the time is sacrificed from my sleeping time.
And he is still staring at me. AND HOW DO I DO MY THIINGS! I intend to slp at 2. ok?!
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Its been so long since my last entry. Im not being lazy! Its my modem. Its spoilt over the past weeks and i had been living without internet for so long! Its when you lost something then you know its precious. You get what i mean? lol
I spent the around 2 hours to fix the whole internet issue. Bought the modem from singtel this morning and came home to fix it. Its not wireless modem so you got a lot more things to settle. Like you have to plug it into your laptop in order for it to work. Its tedious work thats it. Its cheaper by the way. Much much cheaper than a wireless modem. My broadband contract ends around at September so might as well renew my contract and get a free modem then. LOL.
I wasnt too confident about setting up the modem thing. Its not just plug and go. Its really INSTALLATION matter and its seriously hard for such a computer idioit like me. LOL. So i spoent the time from 3 to around 4, trying very hard to do installations. Until the very last few stages im stuck and i had to call the help line. That technical officer is great, helped me with alot of stuffs and thank you for being so patient. I bet he must have spent alot of his energy to teach me and spoilt alot of his brain cells when guiding me. LOL.
Im thankful and finally the thing got done at around 5. So... TWO hours, in fixing the internet thing. Hopefully my sis and dad would be more than satisfied with my performance given that im such a pc idioit. But i score the best in m family. lol. thank you thank you.
So.... i guess you guys will be seeing more of my posts! I really treasure being online, cos I fixed it back on my own by the way!
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