He is back home, finally, safe and sound, back from the hospital. The news of Him being admitted to the hospital was like lightning to me. You could have not imagine how much pain i was in, how much worry i was feeling. You might still think that im cold-blooded and selfish but i, too have feelings. Feelings that i might not express in my daily lives. Feelings that u might have never touched.
Tears that flow down are just a form. Mine not down my cheek, but inside my heart. Its infuriating to feel in this way. To have guilt that i cant fling away, though i know i might not be the main cause of all these. To have blame that wrap around me, even the air that surround cant seem to supply my lungs. To have the scoldings and cold eyes looking at me, yet cant tear them away.
You may not think i could even feel these, but i am still made of flesh and blood, and i have feelings. He is my dearest nephew and im worried for him more than you could imagine. I no longer care how you look at me, for i only care for his safety. I no longer care for your forgiveness, as i gain support on the fact that it may not be totally my fault, or the virus might not be totally from me.
No matter what, i dont know how to face you....
No matter you believe or not, I love him.......
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